Gratitude

I didn’t feel thoughtful
I didn’t feel “universal”
cosmos and chaos were the same to me
then we became friends again
and discovered adoration
suddenly I understood transcendence

as a way of being for the body
oh, the long, private history
climbing the lonesome roads together
could be included
leaned forward up the steep pathway
sweating, stopped to drink water

why did I feel so happy?
why did I feel such gratitude?